So the title is pretty random, and the reason for that s because I can't seem to get my thoughts straight today. I spent two hours working on a puzzle this afternoon, and the whole time I was thinking about things. I've made alot of changes to my life recently. some good, some bad, but I regret none of them. But there are still alot of things I want to change. My sleep schedule, for one, would be a nice change. I feel like an insomniac. Another would be my attitude towards certain aspects of my life right now. Ever the optimistic, the friends that no longer feel the need to keep in touch I see as just being extremely busy. The truth of the matter is they are slipping away, and I'm afraid I care less about that than I thought. This should bother me more, but it doesn't. I don't think I'm jaded, but maybe....more realistic? Eventually I will make new friends, but until then I have the constant support of my family and Joy.
On another note, the great job hunt of 2011 is taking its toll on me. I know I can do nothing but be patient now, because I REFUSE to do any more stinking applications (online or elsewhere). I have filled out my share, and I do not care to have anyone else tell me the "position has been filled". I could rant about the abundance of jobs here and the ignorance of employers all day but I won't because I don't want a headache.
Anyways, back to the puzzle pieces. It seems like everything is finally falling into place in my life right now. I think my mom and I are closer than we have been in a while and I'm loving it. We actually went horse riding together again the other day and it was the best time I've had all summer. It's not hard to talk to my mom at all, and being outside was something we both needed. I give her a breath of fresh air and she keeps me grounded. We work lol. I'm working on getting into my sister's head, although that's a whole new puzzle unto itself. I think we're both ready for our new lives to begin. (aka when the school year starts up again). Other than that, we're cool. I'm extremely jealous of her getting a job after only filling out 2 applications! (her two versus my 12) yes I've counted. Life is just pretty good right now.
Totally unrelated, but has anyone ever noticed how much FUN it is to wear mismatched socks? It's like you can pretend to be a different person because your dressed out of the normal. It's like feeling sexy even though all you did was buy cute underwear. No one can see it, but you feel awesome. :) On that note, I bid yu all goodnight! PEACE
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